Insomnia

1:45 AM
Lying awake at night trying to sleep doesn't help anyone. It adds to anxiety that you don't sleep when you have to wake up early. But when did we ever manage to sleep when we were anxious, throughout the history of our living race?

So I decided to wake up and relax. I let go of my minds instruction to sleep, for my mind knew that if you don't sleep well, you waste your next day.

Sleep: When you shut down from all your state of awareness. You are a lump of mass then. At the most vulnerable of state. You can be overridden by a truck and you won't know, or be trampled by people when you don't see it coming. So for a good sleep you need to rest your worries way. You have to find a cave in your mind where you can surrender your arms and shields.

So can I sleep when awake?
I don't think so. Because, when you are awake, you are aware. You see, hear, feel, taste, think. You process garbage just because you are aware. For sleeping you need to unplug. Let go.

Why am I not sleeping then?
Bcoz ... I ha'ent leht gooo..

08:45 AM: 
Time to wake up and get ready work. 
(Sleep? Who?)

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